Mama Rucci

I Don’t have an inside voice, Please Stop asking me to use it!

Quit Smoking- Second Times the Charm March 27, 2010

Last month I wrote two posts- One about how I was about to quit smoking and the second about how I was smoke free for a week. I was doing really really good, and figured I kicked the habit! Yay Me!! I haven’t written about it since because I was ashamed and didn’t want to let those down around me who were cheering me on and supporting me. I didn’t want my readers to think I was a weak loser with no will power.

I’ve seen two people in family put the cigarettes down and never pick them up again. I measured myself against them….why couldn’t I be like that?? I’m here to admit that I didn’t do it, I had a couple things happen in my personal life (I won’t get into now) that pushed me over the edge. I said screw it and picked up that old friend who consoled me, calmed me, and made everything feel better for a little while. I know this is NO excuse- but the fact is- Nicotine is not the only addiction, it’s the whole act that you’re addicted to.

I still had it in my head that I would quit again, but this time it was a little scarier because now I knew just how hard it was. Then today I received a comment on my HotMess post and she told me I had given her hope….imagine that…ME…giving someone else hope. She made me see that it’s hard for others too. I want to take her hand and walk beside her, share our stories about our “old friend” who we need to sever this toxic relationship with. It turns out that she has given hope back to me!

I did get the starter pack of Chantix AGAIN and I will be joining my new friend Cindy and start my journey again. Tomorrow morning I take my first step to a “smoke free” life.

I will keep telling myself, I am a NON-Smoker! To those of you who cheered for, stood by me, and prayed for me…please don’t stop. I won’t be afraid to fall and I will look for your hand to help me up! Please add Cindy in your prayers as well. Then we will all celebrate together. Although I won’t be able to drink for a while as they go hand in hand 🙂


8 Responses to “Quit Smoking- Second Times the Charm”

  1. I’m cheering you on no matter how many times you fall off that bike! ((hugs))

  2. tina Says:

    awwww, rachel you can do it!!!
    I will still love you even if you fall off the wagon again.. don’t ever be ashamed to come and tell us and ask for help.

    you can do it….. do it for the new grandson, so you will be around longer to spoil his little butt!!


  3. Janine- What would I do without You??? {{HUGS}}

  4. Thanks Tina- I’m so happy I can count on friends like you! I think I should pin his picture to my cig pack…that should help!

  5. Jeannine Says:

    You can do it. It is so hard to quit, take it one day at a time. One minute, one hour. Reward yourself for your victory. Set a goal if i quit for one week i get this. I have faith in you! If you don’t succeed you will keep trying until you do.

  6. Brandy Says:

    I would love to be motivation but I myself need some motivation. I have debated trying Chantix … IDK .. the patch worked to get my mind off having a cig as you can’t have them while on the patch. I quit for 9 weeks and went right back … ugh! I need to quit too because I want to keep up with my three & be able to live longer .. the cigs are killing me!

    GOOD LUCK you can do this girl!

  7. Sylvia Fiore Says:

    I have one hundred percent confidence in you. I know you can do it. Think positive and take one minute at a time. We all love you.
    Sylvia xoxo

  8. flavour art Says:

    I want to to thank you for this great read!! I absolutely loved every bit of it. I’ve got you bookmarked to check out new things you post�

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